litTle BLUe HOoD

haven’t come back for a long while…
And I finally figured it’s the best place to still write something about my life, privately.

So I graduated from ITP, and just like everyone else, drifted and drifted to dig into a new stage of life.
And I found my EAD card disappear, and I have to go back to Taiwan while waiting for my new working permission, and I got the chance to work in big companies in Taiwan, and I tuened them off, just becasue I believe that I’m not done with the city.

And as time passed by, I have to find a job and accompany my parents, and without any other options, I start taking what first comes to me, a not very attractive job. And without any reason, my boss became really wired and said he loves me (oh my god what the hell is that) and without any option I welcome my second job that first come to me.

I kept telling my self to choose when I have more choices, but I didn’t even pick up any other interview phone calls simply because of my wierd boss?

And then I thought life could be different in a startup company, when ppl usually says that it’s a place for dreamers, it seemed much more for money than I imagined…I feel like losing my freedom of speech and freedom of mind. I guess I’m wrong again, or in another word, I have been spoiled for long. I become picky about all those ideas that sounds similar and normal. The feelings flow up and down and already out of control.  

well..so this place now seem like a disaster …I feel sorry for my coworkers and sorry for my current situation. People usually say that one should first try to change people and change their environment before escaping from it, but I am not sure how long I can stand.  When it is not meant to be as free and flexible, and when no one’s up there to brainstorm for really good stuff, I don’t know why I’m wasting my time idling….

I guess I’m just not happy…:(
but I will still remind myself to remember how far everything could be, and I wish I can be as picky as supposed to be. 

And still, I miss new york…>< miss being myself…